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Believe

2011-07-25T13:48:00.001+08:00

It’s been sometime, I know it’s been bothering me all these while. I pretended to be fine, smile like there’s nothing going on. I tried my best to fit into it but I couldn’t. No matter how hard I tried, I just can’t seem to be in it. It’s tough, it’s miserable and painful. I can only look forward to end of the day and the precious weekends that I’ve got. That’s when my smiles, my laughter and happiness would shine. That’s when I feel most comfortable and happy. I don’t have to pretend; I don’t have to try to hard to fit into somewhere which I don’t belong.

People affect you. They can change you. They are the ones who can bring you down or feel at ease. I’ve been telling myself to be strong, to “hang in there”, “hush hush”, “everything would be fine”. It seems like its getting worst. Friends cheered me on. Parents gave little advised. Afterall, I’m the only one who can make myself feel better.

I always believe in this “Everything happens for a reason”. This is just another obstacle that I’ve to overcome it, I can’t rely on anyone. I will be able to find out the reason soon enough..

I know I will be stronger in time to come.

Believe in me, Believe in yourself.

2011-03-18T00:06:00.000+08:00

Yes you.

2011-03-18T00:02:00.001+08:00

I took a total of 6 panadols today, and my flu is still as bad. ):

Brilliant advertising - happiness machine.

2011-03-09T17:11:00.000+08:00

We create our own fate.

2011-03-09T16:55:00.006+08:00

Some say...

Life is easy

Life is difficult.

Life is cruel.

Life is Kind

Life is meaningless

Life is meaningful.

Life is full of hate

Life is full of love.

Life is of no regrets

Life is of regrets.

Well.. You're not them.

It's all up there in your mind, your soul & your body.

You live your life, you create your fate with your own bare hands.

& It's all up for you to decide.

Learn to appreciate.

2011-03-06T16:19:00.001+08:00

2011-03-06T01:12:00.005+08:00

I am sad, hurt and terribly lost.
Nobody would be able to understand how I feel.
I cant turn to anyone.
Life is difficult for me.
Nobody would really appreciate, No matter how hard I try.
I tried to be strong...
Life is unfair.
My life ......and I'm tired.

where are all my little guardian angels?

Interesting

2011-03-04T02:27:00.003+08:00

Are you in love with cereals! Here, I just came across this interesting campaign when i was doing some research! It's pretty amazing. You've no idea how a tiny mini brain of a human beings are able to come up with creative and totally unique idea.

Thumbs up!
:)

I will be strong

2011-02-06T14:51:00.002+08:00

Heard that? It's doesn't matter how tough it's gonna be, all I know is that we're going through this tgt. Let's be strong.

It breaks my heart.

2011-02-06T14:39:00.003+08:00

It breaks my heart.

I could feel your sufferings, I could hear your complaints, I could see your worries.

& yet, I couldn't do anything.

I've tried to build up bits and pieces of happiness in between, but it doesn't seem to be helping.

Dear "whoever/whatever-is-torturing-you", tell me what can I do to exchange for your happiness?

2010-11-12T20:27:00.003+08:00

oh my hun,
It's the fifth day, i'm missing you like crazy. Your messages and calls are the only thing that i look forward to. I'm so sick of school, I can't wait to graduate. I've no motivation to do anything. ):
I can't stop telling my friends how much i miss you, i even broke down at night after hearing your voice.

I know, it's just the beginning & im still adapting, trying my best to adapt to this kind of "life". I am trying to be Strong and i believe i can overcome this torturous period of time.
I'm worried for you, I wonder if you're able to cope, i feel you. Through the calls that you've made, i could sense your stress, your fatigue, your unhappiness, your worries and etc. My heart aches, whenever i received your msges. How i wish we could go through whatever you're going through right now, tgt. ):

Hun, i'm discipline enough(: I'm a good girl. I hit the gym, the park, went to school on time, try to pay attention in class& reach school on time. (:

I want a hug.
I love you, my hun.

2010-10-23T15:05:00.003+08:00

Why do i feel so sad? what's going on? My little heart, ache so much.

Leave me alone.

2010-10-20T11:03:00.004+08:00

I love you,the cutest boo on earth(:

2010-10-17T23:57:00.003+08:00

I don't know what to do. I always land myself in trouble while trying so hard to please everyone. I don't want to hurt anybody, and end up hurting myself. what can i do?

..sigh

PURE. SPECIAL & BEAUTIFUL. "L"

2010-10-06T23:55:00.004+08:00

L O V E ♥

My parents are supportive, understanding and PERFECTLY PERFECT. They always try their best to provide us with the best that they can. What more can I ask for?

Since young I’ve been taught to be independent, learning how to take good care of myself and etc. Most of my friends envy knowing that my parents are not staying with me.

Some may go “Omg, that’s so cool! You can have all the freedom in the world”, or some may even go “OMG! I envy you! No one can nag at you all day long!”.

I actually miss my parents nagging at me; miss eating home cooked food every single day, miss shopping for groceries with them, miss every single thing that you guys can easily experience it with your parents. My parents do come and visit us once or twice a month, or vice versa. Every single time they come, they’ll cook some nice dishes and buy us groceries.

For the reason that we met only a few times a month, brought us even closer. I can chat with my mum all day long without feeling tired at all. (: Our relationship is more than just a mum & daughter. I can easily say that she’s my best-est friend on earth. She knows me inside out. We’ve telepathic communication too & you’ve totally no idea how special it is. (:

Being the middle child isn’t that bad afterall. I could easily clique with my sister and brother. How awesome is that? My sister update me about her school life on the other hand, my brother occasionally update me about his life and secrets too! * laughs.

I’ve such great parents that everyone is yearning for. They’re my pillar of strength, of course not forgetting the boyfr who is always there for me all these while. I’m grateful, and always looking forward to every moment spend with my family and the boyfr.

*Thank you, the boyfr.

Life is unpredictable, Treasure your love ones.

♥ is pure, special & beautiful

2010-09-16T03:29:00.005+08:00

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."
—Marilyn Monroe

2010-09-15T11:32:00.002+08:00

NFSW is addictive! :O hehehe.

HONG KONG(:

2010-09-13T14:53:00.009+08:00

My virgin trip to Hong Kong. (:

The streets were busy with vehicles and human traffic. The place was accessible, similar to Singapore and that's the reason why I didn't get lost.
Ocean Park was the best among all! (: However,I didn't get to visit Disney Land.

I'm too lazy to blog about the itinerary, I shall upload a few photos to share with you all.(:

2010-07-20T19:05:00.005+08:00

OOoooh man, I miss you! I hug pengygu everynight:D

This week is massive! With so many datelines and never ending work to be done.
I believe i can manage all these stress given my previous "worst off" projects.
Sacrificing our sleep, our time with our precious and everything else for all these projects.
Worth it or not?-.- Obviously a yes for grades and cert, but no for the rest.

I can't wait to get this over and done with!
HRM tmr, followed by IB, MR, Conbeh,PR,BM.
OMG.
I'll be almost dead by then. ):

Anyway, we've no choice, so Let's all work hard for this second last sem!(:

2010-07-19T20:12:00.002+08:00

Less than 2 more months to holidays!(:
I can't wait to get over and done with exams and projects. It's never ending since year one.
Blogging isnt' my forte. I'm so not use to writing long essays on my personal life.

Blogging isn't about me anymore, it's about conveying messages to those who are interested in reading my post instead. I might have read too much on marketing and branding. That's not the point anyway.

I feel lost. Lost in the sense that, I don't know where to go, what to do after graduation, albeit looking forward to the day I graduate. My results are not that fantastic afterall. What should i do after my graduation? Continue my studies in some private university? sigh. Hopefully, my results for this semester would be better, at least hit my ideal gpa and gain a higher chance of entering into a better school?

* hopefully.
Anyway,
I want to watch despicable me again!

2010-05-17T20:31:00.005+08:00

well, it's been a month since i'd last updated my blog.(:
But i doubt people will be interested in my life. haha. whatever it is, i suddenly feel like blogging again.

I've been skipping lessons lately, not as discipline anymore. My alarm and body clock are pissing me off. But, I'll try to be more discipline.

Ok, for the past one month I've been rather busy with my attachments and of course my boyfriend.(:
School started 2 weeks ago,I'm in the holiday/slack mood.And G is to be blamed for this. He's graduating on this wed! He's currently having his unlimited holidays. I'm here struggling with lectures, tutorials & unnecessary stress.): Envies*

well,I'm still with my small little clique, inside laughs,jokes and etc. But each and everyone of us are busy with our boyfriends? I can see that most of us are not as bubbly as before. Stress,unhappiness are all written on their foreheads. Sometimes i wish i could be that little angel of theirs.

Ok back to Mr.G,
I am missing you already. I've so much to blog, but i don't really know how to express it in my blog.
But, i'm just so in love with you.
This is the first relationship that i felt so real.
A genuine, simple & sweetest relationship of all.

"our small little corner between the bridges"- GHIJK

2010-04-13T22:45:00.002+08:00

what's life all about?

I need to be more mature. Yes, I admit.Admit being as childish as ever. I'm always dreaming of having a hot figure? I should tell myself to dream on.
Ok, i cant believed i just said that. Girls are always complaining about how fat and ugly they are.I mean ME, MYSELF AND I. I didn't even work it out, yet i complained. So what do i complain about? I blame my mum for giving birth to such a fat pig with huge thighs, big bones and blame myself for eating too much in the past.

I gave all sorts of excuses to escape from the reality.

I know what I want right now, but i need even more motivation to do it.
I'm not only talking about exercising, but studies as well.
I want those "A's" and distinctions. I've been dreaming about it since YEAR 1, but I'm not even working on it as well.

Anyway, I wanna thank YOU so much.
<3
kelly will be a better person.

2010-04-03T12:01:00.005+08:00

I was happy when i saw that big wide smile of hers(:
That moment of happiness, it's indescribable & you have to feel it.
It's as if there were no one else around, just the two of them in their own world.
Living in a house of a special relationship, with nothing else except of blooms of romance.

Am I already in that house of romance?
I don't envy, I don't yearn for that.
Because I know that I am happy, happy being his girl.

2010-03-29T20:35:00.002+08:00

you're all that i need.

2010-03-29T20:25:00.001+08:00

ouch.

2010-03-21T15:56:00.005+08:00

Fragile Heart- Westlife

A fragile heart, was broken before
I don't think it could endure
Another pain
But there's a voice from deep inside
Of you
That's calling out to make you realise
That this new bond gives inspiration
To all who feel no love appeal no more
So how can I break this wall
around you
That's aiding our hearts to grow
in pain

So forget your past, and we can
Dream tomorrow
Save our hearts for care and
Lovin too
It's hard I know, but oh one things
For sure
Don't go and break this fragile heart

A hurting mind in need of emotion
I don't think I could endure
Another pain
But baby in you, I've found affection
Affection I have never felt before

So don't let your past
Destroy what comes tomorrow
Don't go and break my fragile heart

With all this fire that burns
Between us
There's so much to lose, yet so much
More to gain
And if I could choose the world
Around me
The world to choose, would all
Revolve around you
So help me complete the game
Inside me
And help to mend my fragile heart

2010-03-21T14:11:00.006+08:00

I'm a happy little girl(:
I've great girlfriends and a special bf.They're there for me, when i've difficult times.They send me sweet msges and calls. Which made me realised how fortunate I am.

My "G" brought me to his favourite places, introduced me to his friends, showered me with so much love and care. (: I'm so much happier. Yes, of course i admit, this is just the "honeymoon period" or whatever you may call it. But i'm pretty much confidence that it's just different from the rest of my relationship. hahaha.I can say that "G" is so much understanding and I swear we've so much in common. Except for the Ice skating part. :D

We were supposed to head to ECP for cycling ytd, but the weather decided to go against us. So, "G" suggested "ICE SKATING". well, there's nothing special about it. BUT! kelly is afraid of falling, or trying out new things. In the past, all my friends did suggest going Ice skating with them and etc.. But i refused to, ending up staying at home or going other places. "G" forced me to! hahaha, this means that I'd to overcome my fear. It was scary.
"G" taught me step by step and i did try to understand and digest what he said. He got a little impatient and it was scary! hahahahah:D Slowly, i got a hang of it, and i tried to skate by myself. (: He made me fell and the most evil thing was, he laughed at me. He's so evil. >.<

Ok, I'm posting it on my blog because i'm happy that "G" came into my life.
Everything happened too fast. But I'm sure that it was not within our control. (:
I'm happy that I've the sweetest girlfriends and "G" on earth.

The most important thing is," kelly is so much happier."D "

2010-03-11T06:51:00.002+08:00

It's bothering me. Not much, but somehow it does.

2010-03-08T21:22:00.003+08:00

I don't mean to hurt you, I hope you'll get over it and move on..
Love is selfish.
I believe tt You'll find a better person(:

I'm grateful for everything that you've done and said to me.
Thank you for being such a nice friend.
Thank you so much, really.

2010-03-07T23:00:00.003+08:00

I don't know how the others judges me, they might even talk bad about me. I don't wanna know & i don't wanna care.
Because i know that i didn't do anything wrong. I'm simply pursuing what i want and what i feel is right. I don't care whether you like it or not.. It's my life, my choice.

People tend to judge with what they see or hear, But they don't look into details. (:
I'm totally fine with it, because I know that no matter what happens in the future, I'll face it all alone. I won't drag anyone of you down, not to worry about that. You can laugh at me, or even say anything about me. (:

I'm glad that some of my lovely friends got so excited about this more than i do. (: I'm so glad that you give me the assurance my friend.(:

I am me. (:
You can say that i'm bad, i'm ugly, i'm fat or whatever.
I would be lying if I say tt i'm not affected by what other people say, but.. i will try my best not to care.
I'll prove you guys wrong.(:

Love is not within our control.

2010-03-07T04:02:00.002+08:00

2010-03-01T20:21:00.006+08:00

I'm surprised that I managed to get over it REAL FAST. Because of all those things, that made me realised how stupid i am. I do admit that I fall in love real easily but ..it's always feelings that attracts me. Or maybe, their sweet little actions that melt me little by little. I'm deeply affectionate, I know that i've been hurt not once but a few times. Friends kept telling me that i'm stupid.After all those shits that i've got after spending so much effort into smth and still, not learning from my mistakes.

But, LOVE makes the world goes round. It's nice to be cared by your friends, your soulmate and even your parents.

I believe in myself.
This is the route that i'd chose.
(: I'll take one step at a time.
Because i believe in love.

No matter wad the outcome is, i'll face it myself.
I'm thankful to my friends.
i love all of you.

Hopefully, this is right.

2010-02-23T05:52:00.002+08:00

Intrigue.Resisting.Confusing.Tendency to.

2010-02-20T22:41:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was .. ROMANTIC!(:
It's been extremely long since i last felt so relaxed and happy?(: SWANS ARE SERIOUSLY PRETTY AND ADORABLE((: thanks a lot:DD

Met the 5 of them today,& i had fun(:
I miss their laughters.
All of us were real tired.
I would only get to see them after 2 months and two weeks);
gonna miss the 5 of you!
the other two were busy shopping therefore not inside those retarded pictures-.-

2010-02-19T10:52:00.001+08:00

Justin Bieber- Common Denominator

Just a fraction of your love,
fills the air..
And I fall in love with you,
All over again,
Ooh,
You're the light that faced the sun,
In my world,
I'd face a thousand years of pain
For my girl.

Out of all the things in life,
That I could fear,
Uh
The only thing that would hurt me,
Is if you weren't here,
Woah

I don't want to go back
To just being one half of the equation
You understand what I'm sayin'?

Girl with out you I'm lost
Can't face this focus at heart
Between me and love
You're the common denominator, oh, oh, ohh, oh
You're the common denominator, oh, yeah, woah

Before your love was low
playin' girls was my high
You changed the game now I put my card in the side, aye

When broken hearts rise up to say love is a alive
You and I will stand to be love's reply, yeah

Out of all the things in life that I could fear, yeah
The only thing that would hurt me is if you weren't here, here, here
Yeah, Yeah

I don't want to go back
To just being one half of the equation
Do you understand what I'm sayin'? (do you understand?)

Girl without you I'm lost
Can't fix this compass at heart
Between me and love
You're the common denominator, oh, oh, ohh, oh,
You're the common denominator, oh, oh, ohh, oh,

I can't imagine life without your touch,
And every kiss that you give, you fill me up
And through all the heart achin' and jealous females hatin'
Imma hold it down for you, you

Oh, whoa...
Your the common denominator,
Oh, yeah, woahh,
I don't wanna to go back,

I don't wanna go back
To just be one half of the equation (half of the equation)
Do you understand what I'm sayin'? (oh, whoa)
Girl without you I'm lost
Can't fix this compass at heart
Between me and love
You're the common denominator (oh, oh, ohh, oh, )
You're the common denominator (oh, oh, ohh, oh, )

Just a fraction of your love fills the air,
And I fall in love with you all over again...

2010-02-19T10:25:00.003+08:00

Yesterday i had much fun with PZ! :D hahahahs. It's tiring):
Went town after tt.
Having so much things in my mind, going bonkers alr.
I should give myself sometime.
(:
I've been doing so many crazy stuff. I mean things that i do, say that scares people off.
Goodness, i shouldn't be like that.
Actually, i'm not in the mood to go out but kinda forcing myself to go out.
Making myself seriously Dead tired.
Nightmares attacked me again, It's like the real thing. I mean it forms bits and pieces of reality. It's scary, I don't wanna think about all those shitty stuff tt i'd experience but why am i reminded again.
CRUEL.

Next week attachment, & i'm Nervous.

2010-02-16T23:04:00.004+08:00

Logan Lerman(: HOT!
Percy jackson & the lightning thief with the 3 boys.
:D

Gonna enjoy the last four days(:
OK anyway, nothing to blog.
buh-bye.

taking one step at a time, one thought at a time.

2010-02-11T14:05:00.002+08:00

They asked if i'm sad. I said yes.
They asked if i shed a tear. I said No.
I am prepared for it.(:
Set us free, and be happy.

goodbye 11.

2010-02-09T20:25:00.002+08:00

This week is crazy man. I'm always blogging about exams, exams and exams.
how nice if there's no examinations in school life.
I screwed my finance with millions of careless mistakes. Efma was so-so.
Marketing paper tomorrow! Haven't really covered some of the lectures. Am already suffering from brain damage right now.
Not enough sleep..Disgusting blood clot in my eye had been distracting me a lot. -.- no choice but to wear ugly specs to school. UGLYxxxxxxxxx100000.
-.-

Anyway, again, my life is always the worst of all among my friends. I feel so stupid at times, but why?
It's time to wake up from nightmares..
we'll see after exams...sigh.

2010-02-09T13:54:00.000+08:00

Eren 'Kangen Band' - Takkan Pisah

sayang aku ingin berbicara kepadamu
tentang apa yang tengah aku rasakan
ada apa, ada apa katakanlah semuanya
ku kan dengarkan duhai cintaku

bila nanti orang tuamu meridhoi dengan
apa yang ku rasakan padamu
semua orang tua ingin yang terbaik untuk anaknya
begitu pun orang tuaku

kau takkan tinggalkanku
takkan pernah, sayangku
janjimu janjiku untukmu

reff:
takkan ada yang pisahkan kita
sekali pun kau telah tiada
akan ku pastikan
ku kan memeluk menciummu di surga

jangan kau pergi tinggalkan aku
bawa aku ke mana kau mau
janji ku padamu
jiwa dan ragaku mati pun ku mau

repeat reff:

2010-02-02T14:49:00.002+08:00

SIGH
It's really a sad day for me. The thought of not meeting up kills me. Exams and those retarded modules are already giving me problems. . And now sigh.

When you're always looking forward to something, it won't happen at all. It's rather sad you see. Not only me, but B as well. I swear we really have the same pathetic life man.

Like i said, i can give up almost anything for you.I don't know if you even feel it.
Accidents, don't kill me. But harsh words kills me straight. I swear.

I cant even put my heart and soul in studying.
Who wanna study with me?
I seriously need help man.
I just fucking cant concentrate at all.

Communication and meeting up is so fucking important between human beings.
what a sad life.

2010-02-01T19:11:00.004+08:00

Leona Lewis - I see you

Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me
Enchanted
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends

I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love

You teach me how to see
All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your world I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you
I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends

I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you

When my heart was never open
(and my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colors of love and of life ever more
Evermore

(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living through life flying high)
Flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
And live through your love
And live through your life
I see you
I see you

2010-01-31T19:42:00.005+08:00

Had a sweet little day with jo @ sentosa.(:

2010-01-23T14:34:00.004+08:00

HAPPYDAY(:
Awesome day at Occ ytd with ABF & his family(:
It's like a little wish of mine came true, just felt like omg-Happiness.
But time flies madly whenever im happy.
thank you, ABF.

Anyway, having test and presentations on monday & tuesday.
Exams coming & i don't have the mood for it, havent't start studying yet.
Gonna start after tuesday? hopefully(:

2010-01-20T13:52:00.002+08:00

Slept till 5pm , zhi called and i rushed to school. Felt a little bad for being late, but at least i'm better than yl (:
Fetch yl at kovan, surprisingly and unexpectedly don manage to reach kovan without any rounding or so.HAHAHA.(:
After which, went to Timbre, drink,makan & crap.Quite a number of chicks and __around.heh.anyway,twin sister got high/drunk?i dunno what. She's simply too adorable. ahhaha. It's fun to see my mirror got high, because i cant see myself in that state you see.:D hahahas!
After a sudden brake by don, she got a little bit more awake but continue to sleep in the car.
Went for prata after, gossiped a little and headed back home. SO TIRED.
Skipped school for the day.):

Don gonna fly to paris in... less than 12 hours time. (:
Takecare!!

2010-01-17T16:23:00.004+08:00

Let's be general.

What do girls want in general?
Fame? Hot boyfriend? or a good and peaceful relationship?
well, I don't want a hot boyfriend, i just want a peaceful and smooth relationship.
someone who can love me wholeheartedly & be faithful to me.
(:
But i just don't understand guys. I mean in general, not referring to anyone. From what i see and observe, Guys love hot girls with hot bod, i guess they would be extremely proud to have hot girls around them. By knowing all hot girls, they'll feel proud as well i guess?
I don't know but that's how i felt.

What do guys get from, flirting with other girls? I mean is it fun? will they gain anything from it? or maybe they'll feel a sense of "I don't know what"

oh god.
i refer to some ? or maybe most of the guys?-.- TSK.
SIGH.

2010-01-17T00:13:00.003+08:00

Making a wish at 12.12
Hoping that it will come true(:

Why do i feel this way?
Can i survive?
Oh god.

2010-01-09T00:26:00.003+08:00

Oh i am terribly broke.):
how to survive?haha. Hopefully i can.

Anyway, I'm so paranoid nowadays. Looking at pretty girls with hot bod makes me feel terrible & inferior.Seriously, i've never ever felt so bad before. oh god.):
I cant wait to go attachment & earn money man. (:

2010-01-07T16:53:00.008+08:00

2009 had been a busy year for me.
I've made a lot of friends,to... however,i've lost some of them due to my negligence.
Attachments were crazy, never ending projects and work to be done.

It's been rather a tough year for me, from friendships, relationships to school.
But, I've managed to overcome almost all of them.
Thanks to my dearest hc, as well as other friends.

Xiaolun-Hc, Thank you for everything that you've done for me.Giving in to me, giving me what i want & etc.Also, Making me smile with your nonsensical crap and actions. Being sweet to me and giving me compliments even though it wasn't true. HAHA(: But, thank you for being there for me during those crazy attachments, helping me with retarded posters, reports and laughing at my broken english.hehe:D
Thank you for going through ups and downs with me. Thank you for being so adorable as always,ILY(:

Edd, I'm so thankful. Thanks for being there for me when i needed you the most. Thank you for ur understanding,advices& your craziness. EY!I haven met chelsea yet. (: you ok ma? hahaha.
Though there were a lot of misunderstandings in the middle, but you were still so nice to me(:
I am seriously thankful to have you as my friend.(: it's been almost ...7 years? maybe i exaggerate a bit. ahaha but, whatever thank you so so so fucking much.(:

kellarie, though i've lost you in one way or another, you're still not forgotten. (: thank you for protecting me during those times and hearing me out. take good care of yourself(:

Chloe, thanks for helping me out in projects when i was struggling like mad. Yes, honestly, you're someone that helped me out the most in school. I've been wanting to thank you, but i was kinda shy. hehe.(: nevertheless, i am seriously thankful. Thank you for acc me during some of the weekends to do projects and follow me to sengkang and stuff. (: <3

bella,sof & friends, though laughters are lesser, it's understandable. all of us having our own life, and stuff. but still, we'll work out with strategies regarding improvements on laughters:D

Thank the rest of them who've came into and make a difference in my life(: I believe, if i were given more time , i would choose to spend more time with my love ones. May my 2010 be the best year ever, because i'm gonna be 20 this year OMG. that's really old. goodness gracious.

I LOVE 2010(: may 2010 be an awesome year for me(:

2010-01-06T16:31:00.001+08:00

I'm supposed to attend 2 lectures today.
But, i didn't.): I was dead tired so i slept till 1.30pm.
Wanted to start on my marketing project but team mates aren't online yet.
I've been stoning and staring into my laptop screen for the past 3 hours.
Missing Hc, hoping that the'll be awake soon.
& yes, HC's awake right now but heading off to work.
I'm missing hc. & getting worried for my projects.

how ?):
24 more days to IPP.
Excited or not:D

2010-01-05T20:51:00.003+08:00

Spend 5hrs in school, stoning, laughing & laming.
Someone else were engrossed into playing Fm.
I'm so dead right now. Tired-.-
I need slp!:D

oh, love.<3

2010-01-04T22:51:00.003+08:00

(:
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY HC!(:
I am happy, i think HC too.
Much effort was put in, sweet surprises were thought to be exciting but failed though. LOL.
Afterall HC was totally touched and happy(:

HEHEHEHE.
Yay, happiness.
it's in our heart.

2010-01-02T12:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SISTER!

I felt kinda bad, on my birthday you gave me sweet surprises. But i didn't even gave you anything.):
But i promise you that I'd give you a belated one(:
I love you
<3

2009-12-31T18:53:00.002+08:00

HAPPY LAST DAY OF THE YEAR(:

GOODBYE 2009 & HELLO 2010!

Last minute preparation, headed to a secret place. (:
peanut butter were at the train station,looking adorable & sweet.
headed for favourites and again stomach was bloated with food.
Movies, sleep & snored.
(:

Next afternoon,
Wanted to catch avatar but due to craziness of new year's eve, cwp was flooded with humans.
Decided to go for sushi buffet(;
A short and sweet meal with weird attention around.
A happy new year's eve.
The first time with the last day of the new year(:

Let's welcome a new year with lots of love & happiness.
ILPwithlotsofBAM(:

2009-12-30T01:52:00.004+08:00

Oh, i'm still not use to using LJ. So I've decided to change back to blogger:D
Went back to school spend time watching frisbee trainings. It was so-so:D hahaha.
Luckily his ipod was put to good use. It accompanied me for the night.
(:
Took some pictures secretly because i was really bored:D

2009-12-19T22:48:00.001+08:00

nice one.

2009-12-16T20:31:00.002+08:00

Recently, had been held up by lots of projects i should say. Not in the mood for anything else. It's pissing me off.. seriously.
Initially i was looking forward to spending time with love ones during Christmas or maybe new year. But i doubt i can. I mean, so many things to be done, i doubt the two weeks of holidays would be an enjoyable one.
I guess i might be spending the two weeks sleeping away, rushing crazy projects and perhaps revising a little ?

Sigh, i need a break.
Human beings are weird you see, i should put it that way that everybody is selfish. I feel like i'm playing a game of "survivor". Fighting for good grades and stuff like that.When you get involve in this scary game, you'll get to see the scary side of human beings. oh, in return, you'll do the same thing to them as well.

Instead of trying to push each other off the cliff, why not protect each other from falling down the cliff?
oh, how contradicting can we be.

Sometimes, i feel so lost. Lost in a place whereby there's nothing around you..
Whenever i'm feeling like that, the two person that comes to my mind is always my parents.

I miss them terribly much.
I love them so much..

2009-11-15T10:39:00.001+08:00

I thought it was a dream, tears started flowing down.
will somebody save us?
Why.....

2009-11-09T12:14:00.005+08:00

I'm currently in school. There's a 2 hour break and later a 4 hour break. I'm so bored. I feel like going to the gym, but i didn't bring my attire): Feels like going home, but too lazy to do so. Wanted to do Efma, but i'm procrastinating still.Oh, school is so bored.

argh, i want to see him.

2009-11-09T12:14:00.004+08:00

I seriously hope that this is my one and only one. I want this so much.
Those little little things and surprises that touched me. Asking me to stand up for myself, giving me advise on things that i'm unsure of. Doing things for me without asking for anything in return. Thank you so much.

Nobody can understand this feeling, i should say. Thank you for doing all these for me.I'm thankful(:

Happy 1,2,3 (: i love you.

11 one and only.

2009-11-02T15:56:00.002+08:00

It's been so long since i last blogged! goodness.
My laptop is DOWN & i've no idea what to do now. My back still hurts like mad, but i'm so afraid of going to the doctor. This week's tutorial was a messed. I mean, i don't even understand what is it all about. I spend my weekends going out and not doing a single tutorial because i don't even know a single thing. SHIT.

I'm feeling lost right now.
Will you give me a hand?
I miss your genuine smile.
I LOVE HAMSTER.

2009-10-26T20:12:00.003+08:00

Finally i get to go tanning with jo ytd(;
Seriously,I'll rather be a roasted pig than a fair sheep or cow? i duno.
Had quite a lot of fun ytd, a series of funny and strange incidents happening around for us to laugh about.
The after effect of tanning wasn't what i really expected,i felt kind of disappointed. hahaha. But nevertheless i got to spend time catching up with jo's life. She looks like my sister with her petite body:D damn adorable:D
I miss her adorable character alr. hahaha.

Anyway, i was so tired today, didn't felt like going to school.what motivated me to go to school was wanting to see hamster and my 2 darlings.Of course i don't want my efforts to go down to drain as well. Meaning, i spend so much time on doing my tutorials, it'll be a waste if i don't go to school right? thank god i went, because i had quite a fruitful lesson. i swear business finance is a torture.Luckily bella and hamster taught me a lil(: & i love myself(;
HOHOHO.
Moving on...
School had been really... It's a mixture of this and that. I don't feel like describing it, but school life had changed quite a lot ever since the start of year 2 or maybe during tep.But, the purpose of schooling now is to try my best to do well for exams and enjoy life with my two darlings in class and as well as hamster(:

other than that, i guess i've nothing to look forward to, because everything changes and everything happens for a reason. I'm getting use to it, and shall not complain anymore(; I'll Just do my own things and not care about other things that doesn't concern me.

Oh, i'm so tired. GOOD NIGHTS(:

2009-10-23T19:25:00.004+08:00

looking forward to sunday! (:

2009-10-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

I have a big face.she looks hot uh:D

2009-10-21T23:30:00.002+08:00

Thousand words couldn't be explain.
I don't feel like going to school.
I just feel like spending my time with my love ones.
But, sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

2009-10-21T17:36:00.000+08:00

Where are you? sigh.

2009-10-21T17:26:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday valarie(; hope you enjoyed your birthday ytd(;

2009-10-17T21:02:00.005+08:00

kelly feels that she's rather an independent kid.
Mummy and daddy are not staying with her, visit her on some weekends, if not she'll go back with sis to visit her parents(:
She needs to settle food herself, laundry herself. everything and mostly by herself.
She visit the doctor alone when she's sick.
She felt like a loner at times.
Sister is busy with her A's, rarely come home, if not she'll be sleeping when kelly is back home.
Bro does his own things, we don't talk , not even a single word.
I stay in my room whole day long, chatting on msn, fb. Nothing esle.
I miss night life, i miss my friends.
vain hamster is busy with his trainings and work. Only get to spend time with him when he send me home & maybe on certain weekends, that's why she tried her best to wait for him to end training.

She's always wondering..
When will the whole family stay tgt again?
When will she get to spend time with her bffs again?

She feels like having a heart-to-heart talk with someone who will truly understand her.
She feels like staring at the black wide sky with millions of stars twinkling and smiling at her.

She'd so much to say, but who would really understand how she feels?
she's feeling rather sentimental.
missing mummy,daddy & childhood.
Missing friends & tep
...

Million of words & expression in her left unsaid.
She'd learnt how to bring happiness to others.
Behind her laughter are hidden with a heart with stitches.

2009-10-17T11:10:00.010+08:00

THAT'S RONALD CHONG!!!(:

That's 9 weeks in emrs- ROADSHOW!

That's MSC STOPOVER -9 weeks in CHEERS

My TEP officially ended in 6 months.(:
I guess i'll miss everybody in tep(: , did you see my twins there? hahaha! she's peizhi! i found my twins in tep! hahahas:D
I love emrs the most i should say, you should know why:D
hahahas. anyway, monday would be the start of my second sem .
Never ending studies and icas coming up. But, i'm so looking forward to lectures, being in the same class with everybody esle in tep!
OF COURSE, i'm not not looking forward to tutorials. Turns me off.
GOODNESS, well, i'll just stay with my own cliquee(:
I hope i'll seriously study hard this time round. Because tep is my motivation plus, ronald chong motivated me.(:

I'm so in love with everybody in TEP(:
I'm so glad that i've made so much/many friends.
HAHAHA. And i swear my laughter is so contagious that i can make supervisors laugh like mad! hahahahas. I AM SERIOUSLY IN LOVE WITH TEP. Those great memories i had with those retarded and fun people!!!

shafiqah , thanks for the sweet note and choc(;
I love cheers TEAM 3 & the rest as well.
I love xl the most:D hahaha.
Thanks everybody for laughing with me all the time:D
hehehe.

2009-10-11T14:40:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was really a rather special day for me. (:
I got to see what your life is all about. How you played your game in the field. yea, It was really an eye opener experience for me.
hmm, on the other hand. You should know how i felt(:
Anyway, You played well(: I'm really proud of you and your team. the rest played well as well((:
Congratulations for winning this tournament.(:

2009-10-03T20:34:00.002+08:00

I hate it, when i'm all alone by myself.
I'm tracing it back, but i failed.

how does it feels having lots of friends around you?
& how does it feels having no friends around you?

goodbye(:

2009-10-01T16:18:00.003+08:00

I enjoy going to school everyday, because i get to see him(:
I enjoy going to school because i get to face FUN people from MSC:DD
hahah:D

Such as OPS! my twins.hahaa:D

I want to talk to you.

2009-09-29T21:32:00.003+08:00

The sight of you makes me rather uneasy.
The sight of you spoils my mood.
The sight of you makes me scared.
The sight of you makes me terribly upset.

I'm so affected by you.

2009-09-27T16:21:00.002+08:00

Oh my goodness, my back hurts.
I had a nightmare this morning.
I dreamt that i died. I went to another world, it was scary. People around me having blood stains all over their shirt, having conversations that they died few years ago. Their body were split half. MY GOD.
I was a ghost, not allowed to step out at night, only allow to go out in the morning. I was worried about my parents because we were not allowed to see them.

Scariest dream of all.shit.
Shouldn't think too much.GAH.

2009-09-26T17:41:00.001+08:00

The actual fact is,
I'm still missing you & them.

2009-09-22T23:54:00.002+08:00

Today was rather a crazy day for me.(:
I drank alone.goodness me, but i was rather safe and sound. hahaha.
Anyway, i didn't know why but i just felt like drinking. Maybe i was a lil upset here and there, accumulated to be a bigger one. hahaha,ya ya.

Somehow, it's all worth it right.Deep inside i know that .. cares(:

Sometimes i ask myself, why.
The reason is as simple, the 3 words explain it all.

(; don't worry, I'm as fine as one two three, as happy as A B C.(:

2009-09-21T23:53:00.004+08:00

I felt different this time round. It's just so different.
It's way too special for me, they must be felt with the heart.
If i am given a choice, i would want to hold on to this as long as possible.

♥♥,11.

2009-09-21T18:56:00.002+08:00

I've been trying my best to bring it all back, but i don't think i did it.
But, i did tried my best.
When you gain smth, u'll bound to lose something in life.
You can't have everything by yourself.

goodbye(:

2009-09-12T12:25:00.003+08:00

Now i understand why i managed to see him at yck that day...
All the best.

I managed to meet up with munling ytd..she told me about it. everything changes.
cheer up(:
Yes,life is back to square one.
sigh.

2009-09-10T22:34:00.002+08:00

On my way back home ytd, i saw washing board.(:
Thank god i saw him, if not i'll not be fine.

(;

i'm feeling much better alr.
Great (:

2009-09-07T19:30:00.003+08:00

<3 XL

2009-09-05T13:46:00.002+08:00

Recently, my life is normal.
I get to see crazy friends and him around in school(:, keeping myself as busy as possible.
I am looking forward to holidays! however, there'll be no more holidays for me.
GOD.
):

Seeing friends and your love ones around would somehow brighten up your day.

2009-08-27T08:13:00.002+08:00

OH SEMESTER TWO, WHERE ARE YOU!
I've been searching high and low for you.
):

Hope that nothing goes wrong again for the day.
sigh.

2009-08-25T23:24:00.005+08:00

I swear i'm damn unlucky during the first day of my new stopover:D
hahah! never ending problems, one after another.
BUT!Thanks to him and the previous batch mates, i managed to overcome some of the problems i encountered.
gah, i'm thankful.hehe.
I managed to do everything on time today:D
My team mates seriously made me laugh like mad! ESP ian! god, i nearly go crazy over his calm-innocent-joke.HAHA! i swear.

hey, sorry sofya and friends, i couldn't go to the mini roadshow);
so sorry.I did came earlier to school having the intentions to go with bella.
Something cropped up in the end,couldn't attend.im so sorry.(:

OH YES! CONGRATS TO WASHING BOARD FOR PASSING HIS TP!
finally got your driving license:D
rounding time hor!heh

2009-08-22T13:16:00.003+08:00

Next Monday would be the start of my next stopover.
The schedule is crazy and never ending work again.
I've lots of things to take note of.):

But, seriously I'm thankful to have you in my stopover, doing the same thing.
thank you for giving me lots of advices & being patience while teaching me(:

I'm still looking forward to semester 2,
I'm still missing those times in class.):
goodbye-

2009-08-20T23:13:00.002+08:00

#. xiaolun . says:
that is why love is spelled as k e l l y. and not l o v e

<3

2009-08-20T17:40:00.006+08:00

<3 I'm glad she's alright already(:
yay,yay.

2009-08-19T20:37:00.004+08:00

I am happy to see ruiqin,michelle,xinyi,hafiz,nabilla & ..everyday!:D
hehehe.

Though i'm in the different team (;
but i realised that they're kinda fun and nice.HAHAH.
NVM LA, :D
I believe we'll bond well with each other!:D hehehe

yay yay,((: missing you.

2009-08-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

<3 for V.
Things aren't the same anymore.
(; But , I'm happy for you.
Don't make yourself unhappy alright,(:
Like i said, i still love you .
For the sake of me, please keep your blog updated.
That's the least i could ask from you.

Our very first movie,(:
with never ending laughter's & happiness.
Without jealousy,pettiness & sensitivity i wouldn't have your assurance(;
thankyou,Mr.bf.

2009-08-17T21:10:00.004+08:00

Today was rather a boring day for me.
But nevertheless, i was entertained by him&friends.I did some self-entertainment as well. hahaha.
I miss EMRS SO MUCH);
Those days whereby we can sit around and gossip ,laugh out loud in project room as if there's no tomorrow, doing never ending posters & having morning meetings.

I'm missing so many ppl in EMRS.

I'm looking forward to movies, and not the orientation and briefings tmr. It'll be a long long day for me, LTD 6 all the way till 5.30 man! my god.-.-

cheers

2009-08-15T18:58:00.007+08:00

I'll never forget those times that we had in EMRS.
I love EMRS a lot, because(:
Thanks for cheering me up, because of EMRS i got to know all of you & you.
I love Team1,2,3,4 & 5!
And Mr.Ronald Chong!((;

I'll never get sick of watching this video !(:

2009-08-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna think about it, don't wanna upset myself & upset other people as well.
I'll let nature take it's course.
friendships*

2009-08-13T10:10:00.002+08:00

I guess i can never love so many people at a time.
Loving my best friends,my darlings&him.
sigh.

It's saddening to know that i've lose you.Val, You were always there for me when i needed you. Protect me everywhere i go. But, it only last for a period of time. Things started changing when i got busy and stuff. Everything seems so different. I told myself not to be like her, but in the end...
Those words that you've said yesterday hurt me so much.
But i want you to know that, i still love you.

missing,missing & missing.

2009-08-12T21:56:00.008+08:00

I believe she'll be alright, don't worry so much alright?(;
cheer up.ily

& my bffs! i miss you guys a lot. why all of you are not replying my msges.);
& my dear val, take good care of yourself, idk what happen to us, whatever it is.. take care.& recover soon.
& my mikado, thank you so much(:
I love all of you so much, but why.

Thank you for waking up early to meet me despite your tiring trainings and stuff.
Thank you for your never ending smiles that brightens up my day(:
thank you so much my <3.

2009-08-11T18:51:00.003+08:00

FBT #11B Shorts
Sizes: XS - XXL
Usual: $10.90
Now: $9.81
FBT #053 Singlet (Men)
Sizes: S – XXL
Usual: $12.90
Now: $11.61
currently doing personal selling, please contact me if you're interested in any of these items(:
credits to xin yi.

2009-08-10T09:39:00.006+08:00

Ytd's EMRS outing was fun though:D hahaha! Went to marina square,we were supposed to watch UP yesterday, but tickets were filling fast.): So we didnt managed to catch the movie. LIALIA was seriously damn bimbo! LOL.Anyway,headed down to Marina Barrage ,the place were filled with lots of people around,With never ending pictures taken and a lot of self entertainments by us.HAHAHA! I find it funny i guessed my beloved ah gua lialia would feel the same way too:D
Nice but short fireworks): was looking forward to nicer ones though. After fireworks,headed down to timbre with the 4 of them. OK, my director didn't know how to appreciate songs. He couldn't wait to go clubbing. And i can see that he's on the verge of crying.HAHAHA:D
I must admit that had so much fun yesterday, with Emrs people & not forgetting you.(:
I love 9 August 2009(:

&& i will seriously miss the whole of EMRS. GAH.):

2009-08-07T20:58:00.001+08:00

Next week would be the last week of EMRS.
I'll really miss their jokes & craps man.
We've gone through so much, ups & downs.
I'll miss them like hell..
anyway, happy advanced national day !(;

2009-08-06T20:38:00.005+08:00

I realised that i've never really succeeded anything in my life.
& I'm always a loser.
1. I got into NA , & it wasn't my expectation.
2.I didn't got into the Polytechnic i wanted to go to.
3.My beloved Friends whom i thought that i'll always love, left me.
4.Always wanted to be perfect, but always make things worst.
5.Supplier back out last min, & left me with nothing.
6. Credits doesn't goes to me, for everything i've worked hard for.
7. Not appreciated for every single thing i've done for others.
8. Always laughing so hard,& make a fool out of myself.
9. Always got myself into unnecessary trouble.
10. Never get anything i wanted in my life.
11. Forever being emotional & sensitive about everything in life.

& now i'm asking why..
am i born to be someone like that?

why.why.why.
I don't ask for much.but i get nothing in return.
NOTHING.

2009-08-02T00:45:00.001+08:00

what a saturday); hahaha.
but still a fruitful one with lots of sarcasm.hah.

must be enjoying themselves right now.gah.
so tempting!

I've a bad feeling of losing all of them ..

2009-07-30T17:11:00.003+08:00

Oh, I've pretty nails.
Randomly, the whole world knows that i'm tired of projects.Therefore, I'm not gonna blog about how tired i am now.
I'm looking forward to the weekends!:D
& I think I've been a little more health conscious than before? hmm, maybe a little more.hehe.
Guess what, I gobbled down the whole bowl of lettuce with lime juice. It's damn nice. You guys should try.

get lettuce in any supermarket, get a few "BALLS"(reminds me of randy's 3 inch....Oh!whatever! HAHAHA) of lime squeeze out the juice and mix it with the lettuce, It's damn appetizing & healthy.

AND! JOGGING EVERYDAY MAKES ME EVEN HEAVIER!
How is that possible!GOODNESS.So, I've decided to change to simple set of burpees!

all the best man:D