“Let's strive for Today's Love & Tomorrow's dream”

Oh i don't hate getting drunk.
I hate defying their words. I hate making them worried, upset and pissed.
I don't like getting all those attentions.
I dislike being taking care of every min and secs.
Being such a nuisance and some attention seeker.
Like some crazy fucked-up shits,Crying for no reason.
Calling people for nothing, hurting people with brainless words. wtf.

Oh man, this feeling sucks.
Regret after getting drunk? what's the point.
I'm such a cucumber.
Knowing that you cant drink but still insist on drinking.
Stop being a f-u girl ok.

but, why am i feeling this way.
I'm always a substitute.
Always, and forever.
I want to be in the first team.
why am i always being treated as a substitute.
Am i not good enough of being in the first team?
why?
I'm feeling so shitty right now.
I'm feeling so fucking damn shitty right now.