It’s been sometime, I know it’s been bothering me all these while. I pretended to be fine, smile like there’s nothing going on. I tried my best to fit into it but I couldn’t. No matter how hard I tried, I just can’t seem to be in it. It’s tough, it’s miserable and painful. I can only look forward to end of the day and the precious weekends that I’ve got. That’s when my smiles, my laughter and happiness would shine. That’s when I feel most comfortable and happy. I don’t have to pretend; I don’t have to try to hard to fit into somewhere which I don’t belong.
People affect you. They can change you. They are the ones who can bring you down or feel at ease. I’ve been telling myself to be strong, to “hang in there”, “hush hush”, “everything would be fine”. It seems like its getting worst. Friends cheered me on. Parents gave little advised. Afterall, I’m the only one who can make myself feel better.
I always believe in this “Everything happens for a reason”. This is just another obstacle that I’ve to overcome it, I can’t rely on anyone. I will be able to find out the reason soon enough..
I know I will be stronger in time to come.
Believe in me, Believe in yourself.
I took a total of 6 panadols today, and my flu is still as bad. ):
Some say...
Life is easy
Life is difficult.
Life is cruel.
Life is Kind
Life is meaningless
Life is meaningful.
Life is full of hate
Life is full of love.
Life is of no regrets
Life is of regrets.
Well.. You're not them.
It's all up there in your mind, your soul & your body.
You live your life, you create your fate with your own bare hands.
& It's all up for you to decide.
I am sad, hurt and terribly lost.